Normally, I am in the unpopular "do the suicide if you want" camp, but if you are struggling during the stay-at-home orders, I would urge you to seek help.

A) No one wants to go to your funeral right now.
B) Your suicide was always going to have a negative effect on some people, at least in the short term. Don't do this to people now.

Regarding A, I know someone who committed suicide yesterday. I mean, it has been ~20 years since I have seen him. Perhaps it is more correct to say I know his mother. A step-cousin I believe is what this individual was.

In any case, there is not going to even be a funeral. Funerals are overrated, but it does give a very clear way to show support for those that are left behind.

Scott had a long, troubled history. In fact, his brother committed suicide many years ago. I am not surprised, but the timing is still pretty fucked up.