@nezumi @katiekats The only person who can beat you, is you.  Only eighteen people in the world have my underlying condition, something so rare it doesn't even have a name, to speak little of the arthritis and fibromyalgia that are comorbid with it, or the PTSD I experience from a violent rape or the homelessness.  And yet here I am, almost fifteen years later, still kicking, and earning a small living, which I might add, is not from dole.  You're only dead if you allow yourself to die.

However, you seem pretty convinced that this is universally awful regardless of what people say, so I'm not really sure why I'm conversing here.