I'm pretty low in motivation and making plans for the future right now, but I am starting to think that whatever I do next should involve starting and building a business together with #, so that when I cannot work any longer or I pass away, he can carry it forward.

I'd love to see the older and younger boys also assist, but the middle child is the one I trust to make decisions that are closest to my own values, so he's the one I'd want to leave in control.

Anyway, that's all great, but doing what? How would I prepare (skill up, get funding, acquire necessary tools and equipment)?

I don't have any answers or even any leanings that I could use for guidance, which stinks, because I have never been the person that did not know what I wanted to achieve and how I wanted to proceed to make that happen.